gunsnrose's Blog

Today I feel relatively good, I woke up to a phone call from my boyfriend which made me smile, I'm finding an outfit for one of my best friends birthday meal and I have plans to see my friends tomorrow and for a girly sleepover on friday after helping one of my best friends paint her room, and hopefully seeing my boyfriend again sunday (after almost 2 years together we miss each other more than ever sometimes) I am going to try my best not to think of the rape today of course I will fail at some point but I will steady myself with breathing. God this is hard I constantly have a weight on my chest and like a dragging feeling, I have to force myself out of bed everyday. I need to tell myself this wasn't my fault and that he isn't everywhere I'm going ... I hope he isn't anywhere near the meal. its ridiculous that he would be but...still scary.